My shoulders and ears are all yours my dear

onesilverbullet @ 2008-01-01T13:15:00

2008-01-01T21:15:42Z

New Years is my least favorite holiday because it makes people act like retards.
You're not going to change shit just because you have to write '08 on your checks.
Empty words and promises. Story of my life.

onesilverbullet @ 2007-12-08T22:55:00

2007-12-09T06:55:54Z

I've been meaning to relay this story since last week, sorry......
scene: en route from Nashville to B'ham, an exit in northern Alabama. The rarely seen freestanding Subway restaurant.
young male sandwich artist:(bored at counter, could care less that we're there)
young female sandwich artist:(also bored, but will at least take our order.)
y.f.s.a: "Whatchew want?"
me: "6 inch ham and pepperoni on wheat."
y.f.s.a: "Aight"
at this point I see the large poster for the Peter Griffin/Family Guy promotion that Subway is doing.
me:(in between condiment requests) "...so, do y'all get to meet Peter Griffin?"
y.f.s.a: "What?"
me: "Do y'all get to meet Peter Griffin?!"
y.f.s.a: "I dunno"
Siggi:(chiming in somewhat laughingly) "Do you know who Peter Griffin is???"
y.f.s.a:(in an intensely short, snotty, teen angst retort) "OF COURSE I KNOW WHO HE IS! I JUST DON'T KNOW IF WE GET TO MEET HIM OR NOT!!
well..........I guess she told us. Hope she sells enough salami to win the free trip to Quahog. Maybe she also thinks Subway is an actual transportation corporation.

onesilverbullet @ 2007-07-24T23:51:00

2007-07-25T06:51:06Z

I'm exhausted. 20 people on one houseboat for a week was too much.
And then Pops came into town. I'm highly sleep deprived and oh so cranky.
All of this "fun" is really cutting into my Harry Potter time.

Don't search for your friends last names on websites unless you REALLY want to know.

I lost my phone and my internet is broken.

onesilverbullet @ 2007-05-06T22:02:00

2007-05-07T05:02:38Z

I was born by the river in a little tent
And just like that river I've been running ever since
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change is gonna come, oh yes it will

It's been too hard living but I'm afraid to die
'Causes I don't know what's up there beyond the sky
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change is gonna come, oh yes it will

I go to the movie and I go downtown
Somebody keeps telling me "Don't hang around."
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change is gonna come, oh yes it will

And then I go to see my brother
And I say "Brother, help me please..."
But he just winds up knockin' me back down on my knees

There been times that I thought I couldn't last for long
But now I think I'm able to carry on
It's been a long, been a long time coming
But I know a change is gonna come, oh yes it will

onesilverbullet @ 2007-04-01T22:04:00

2007-04-02T04:05:41Z

I thought our relationship would last a lifetime.
You can't keep doing this to me.
It's pure torture.
To be so close yet so far away?
Ventura is so close and $105 is so far away.
Damn you Morrissey.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-11-10T16:02:00

2006-11-10T23:01:51Z

Butch Waker on my birthday.
Danzig the day after.
Back to Utah the day after that.

Short and sweet.
But I simply can NOT miss Butch at the Hotel Cafe the day of my birthday.
I already bought 3 tickets for me and the twins.
The show is 21+ and only $10 so if anyone else wants to join in the festivities I suggest you buy a ticket now.
Go HERE now because there are less than 120 tickets available.
Drunkeness and good times are 100% guaranteed.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-10-21T12:34:00

2006-10-21T18:34:39Z

I'm never gonna know you now but I'm gonna love you anyhow.
♥ ♥ ♥

3 years.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-10-06T18:00:00

2006-10-07T00:01:12Z

The Crimea

Why do you never sing in church on Sundays?
Why won't you ever go all the way?
You're floating towards heavenly hell
Hanging from the rafters like a church bell
You're light years away from reality
Lonely and lost in a White Russian galaxy

I've remembered why music is my favorite thing ever.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-08-20T18:54:00

2006-08-21T00:57:54Z

The girls and I are home.
We died and then came back to life.
Fast food really is a killer.
I've started a new tradition where I destroy or lose my phone every time I go to Oklahoma.
So don't try to call me because it won't work.
I think it's in a trash can at WalMart.
Good story which maybe I will tell later.

Snakes On A Plane is seriously SUCH a good movie.

Pictures coming shortly, maybe.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-08-02T14:33:00

2006-08-02T20:33:33Z

Dearest Acceptance Family,

I am writing to you on this day to address a certain issue that has come to many of your attentions. We have been receiving countless e-mails and our operators have had their hands full fielding all of your phone calls inquiring about a dirty little rumor of Acceptance breaking up. To this, my friends, I must say that the Acceptance that you all have know and loved is no more, but this is not an obituary, on the contrary, this is a metamorphosis, its friggen evolution baby, much like a disgusting little caterpillar turning into not one, but two beautiful butterflies. Its science, let me explain......

You see, there comes a time in a band members life where he must choose between the abnormal life of a gypsy rock musician and the normal life of the common man. Jason, our beloved lead singer, has chosen the latter and decided to take on the yoke of the common man. HOWEVER, the rest of us do not share in this desire for normalcy and have decided to continue in our pursuit of rock stardom. You should all be expecting to hear a new kick ace rocking project from Nick, Kyle, and I, as well as a new project from Kaylan and a bunch of secret people that I can't talk about right now. The anticipation must be building up in yer little bosoms as you read this and I can't wait for you to hear what we have all been doing. Remember, don't cry for us Argentina, for this is not a funeral, this is a rebirth of something beautiful. More information to come soon.

Love you guys, wish us luck,

Christian

Am I good or what?
I called this months ago.
Like Metallica said, sad but true.
Just another band to add to "The List."

onesilverbullet @ 2006-07-02T01:00:00

2006-07-02T07:00:11Z

Moscato is probably the best wine ever.
Enjoy The Silence is probably the best song ever.
The 90's are probably my favorite era of music.

Let me just quote Adam Richman when I say "I don't wanna be here anymore."

onesilverbullet @ 2006-06-17T22:51:00

2006-06-18T04:51:32Z

We were so different yet so in love

Why can't I find the courage?

I think it is watching us

We could still try

I thought I remembered

I'm not picky

I like leaves

You're the yellow bird I've been waiting for
(Sup Bright Eyes lyric...)

Won't change my mind

I have been thinking about you all day

Don't accept me

I thought I could help

You make me forget how to breathe

Little sheep

It's my favorite job

Who did this?

onesilverbullet @ 2006-06-15T16:31:00

2006-06-15T22:34:28Z

Matt Skiba's new band is good.

http://epitaph.com/artists/player/artist/220/title/490

onesilverbullet @ 2006-05-27T18:41:00

2006-05-28T00:44:46Z

I've been drinking since 4

1 Bucket-O-Margarita
1 Bucket-O-Mixed Berry Cosmo
1 Ice chest full of beer
1 Stupid storm that might destroy BBQ-ing
More meat and chicken than 8 people could possibly eat

Hughes better kick Gracie's ass

onesilverbullet @ 2006-05-13T15:54:00

2006-05-13T21:54:33Z

Say what?!

Are you in a wind tunnel?
Dirty froster!
You complete me.
You had me at hello.
Now I'm juicy.
Bitch.
You are so neat!
We should take her donuts.
Where are the vaccums? Sporting goods?
I'm loopy!
Where's his girl?
Sugetron! Trogdor!
We should kill birds.
You want a fire hose?
Dorty balls!
The only problem I have a part with...

onesilverbullet @ 2006-04-27T23:42:00

2006-04-28T05:42:15Z

Let me be the first to say it.
The new Ataris album sounds like a rejected HIM album.
Kris = good music.
Kristopher = bad music.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-04-22T23:38:00

2006-04-23T05:38:30Z

Sometime in the wee hours of last night when they wouldn't shut up and go to sleep:

Today when Pops and bubba left me home alone:

He drinks Suge's water and eates her food and whines while he chews it because it hurts his baby teeth:

Suge's baby is his BFF:

(See that scratch on Suge's cheek? He did that.)

Still don't know what to name the sweet little dude.
Bubba keeps saying to name him Coke.
For people who think like Nicki, let me explain that one.
Coke the drug, not Coke the soda, durrrr.
I think he's going to end up being named Dre.
Gotta keep it gangsta.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-04-13T23:48:00

2006-04-14T05:46:32Z

Sweet Jams Of The Week

The Cure - Halo
Teddy Geiger - For You I Will (Confidence)
Ima Robot - Tumbling Down
Adam Richman - What Can Make You Mine?
Rhett Miller - Fireflies
Morrissey - To Me You Are A Work Of Art
Morrissey - You Have Killed Me
Placebo - Infra Red
Placebo - Post Blue
Hit The Lights - Bodybag
Daniel Powter - Bad Day

onesilverbullet @ 2006-04-12T18:40:00

2006-04-13T00:38:47Z

How each of us decides, I've never been sure
The part we play, the way we are
How each of us denies any other way in the world
Why each of us must choose, I've never understood
One special friend, one true love
Why each of us must lose everyone else in the world

However unsure, however unwise
Day after day play out our lives
However confused
Pretending to know to the end

But this isn't truth, this isn't right
This isn't love, this isn't life
This isn't real, this is a lie

How each of us believes, I've never really known
In heaven unseen and hell unknown
How each of us dreams to understand anything at all
Why each of us decides, I've never been sure
The part we take, the way we are
Why each of us denies every other way in the world

However unsure, however unwise
Day after day play out our lives
However confused
Pretending to know to the end

But this isn't truth, this isn't right
This isn't love, this isn't life
This isn't real, this is a lie

onesilverbullet @ 2006-03-08T00:27:00

2006-03-08T07:27:26Z

I think I predicted something similar to this on Chrissy's journal not too long ago.

Vendetta Red are soon to be no more.
So very sad for me.

I'm never going to verbalize my love for a band ever again.
The list of the dead is getting ridiculous.
It started with Brightlife and it will end with Vendetta Red.

Goodnight.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-02-06T23:43:00

2006-02-07T07:29:12Z

"As an Educational Foundation... We teach a corrective and preventive psychotherapy based upon the physics of reincarnation, a comprehensive curriculum of self-mastery that explains the interactive, regenerative function of the mind and brain-body system. In advancing the knowledge of the spiritual principles of life, the teachings of Unarius explain the origin of atomic life within the new holographic paradigm of an interdimensional science."

Let me just state before I start into this that I love the internet.

So, first order of business go here: http://www.roadsideamerica.com/attract/CAELCunarius.html
Read that or skim it if you're lazy.

If that interests you in no way whatsoever stop here and do something else.
If you're still with me go here: http://www.unarius.org/start.html
If you're only sort of with me you can read what follows but I highly suggest reading through the website.

Two things that sparked my interest:

The Truth About Mars: An Eyewitness Account
That human beings live on Mars has been proven during a psychic/mental voyage to the planet Mars when the author visited Martian cities, located underground, and telepathically communicated with a Martian scientist.
Okay. Whoa. What? It's weird to think about how the general population is so skeptical of "normal" psychics yet the Unarius claim to take mental vacations, if you will, to other planets. Ernest Norman says that he learned that children on Mars learn while they sleep. I wish I lived on Mars because I'd be totally smart.
Read the Sample Chapter.
I'm intrigued and I think I'm going to have to get my hands on a copy of that book.

Letters From Unarius Students
This one is my favorite.
Nine years ago, I wanted to make a living as a musician in a speed metal band, but my band members kept getting arrested, committing suicide, and spending the money on drugs instead of guitar strings. I was no exception to this. After high school, I lived at home with little or no practical grasp on reality. Unarius helped me to get off drugs, find a career, and, most importantly, supplied me with a spiritual purpose which fulfilled a deeper need I didn't even realize I was missing. I have seen and know to be true (without hypnosis) lives I have lived as a warrior in Mongolia, a hideously deformed cripple, a pampered aristocrat, a woman pregnant with a priest's child, and many, many other past lifetimes. The recognition of how traumatic experiences from these and other lifetimes have haunted and influenced my present lifetime is what has changed me for the better. I have now no desire for drugs, own my own writing and editing business, and am happily married. Every day is a challenge, but I feel that Unarius provides me with the mental tools which I continue to use to improve myself.
Joseph D. - Dulzura, CA

And I'm sold (no, not really).
I think that's as much information as my brain will process tonight.
We should go to the Teaching Center in San Diego.
Who's up for a day trip in March, eh?
It has the potential to be very, very bizarre.
I mean the lady who co-founded it wore tiarras.
What convincing is needed?
Don't worry, visitors are welcome.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-01-31T03:30:00

2006-01-31T10:36:17Z

3am random thoughts.

I'm seeing a trend.
Band members.
One guy looks like Jesus.
One dorky guy with awkwardly long hair who is never seen in anything but obscure metal band t-shirts.
One or possibly two bald guys.
They all have beards that belong on lumberjacks.

End thoughts.

onesilverbullet @ 2006-01-02T02:20:00

2006-01-02T09:20:19Z

I'm bored so I stole this from Steph.

Pick 20 movies that you love. Pick one (or a few) of your favorite lines from each and post them in your LJ. As people guess, strike out the ones that have been guessed correctly.

1. ~~It's fucking Sunday. And I've got to go to fucking work in four fucking hours 'cos every other fucker in my fucking department is fucking ill! Now can you see why I'm so fucking angry?~~

2. ~~My brother wouldn't touch your titties with a ten foot pole. He likes his women bad Lenora, not cheap.~~

3. ~~The battle of wits has begun. It ends when you decide and we both drink and find out who is right and who is dead.~~

4. ~~You stink. You smell like beef and cheese! You don't smell like Santa.~~

5. ~~They can suck my pathetic little dick and I'll dip my nuts in marinara sauce just so those fat bastards can get a taste of home while they're at it.~~

6. Joel, I'm not a concept. Too many guys think I'm a concept or I complete them or I'm going to make them alive, but I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours.

7. I don't want this guy taking you to like this sketchy quarry in the middle of nowhere to find like, crack whores huffing turpentine or like, pitbulls raping each other or whatever it is you have us doing.

8. You guys gotta get me out of here! There's this guy Nasty Nate who wants my cocktail fruit, and everyone here likes fresh fish! Then The Squirrel Master came out of left field and told me I'm his bitch!

9. ~~Hey, I'm going to give you to the count of ten to get your ugly face off my property before I pump your guts full of lead! 1, 2, 10!~~

10. ~~Good morning starshine. The earth says hello!~~

11. ~~How forceful you are, Brad. Such a perfect specimen of manhood. So dominant.~~

12. ~~When I met Mary I got that old fashioned romantic feeling where I'd do anything to bone her.~~

13. ~~You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings.~~

14. ~~This haunted face holds no horror for me now. It's in your soul that the true distortion lies.~~

15. ~~Maleficent doesn't know anything about love or kindness or the joy of helping others. You know, sometimes I really don't think she's very happy.~~

16. I can't believe he swore on the Bible! Well, if that judge had looked any closer he'd have seen that it was a copy of Moby Dick.

17. ~~If you're from Africa, why are you white?~~

18. My last girlfriend was a feminist, vegan punk who broke up with me because she thought I was too angry.

19. I want to make sure that you and I are best friends "gnome" matter what.

20. ~~I know I'm old enough to be his mother, but when the Duck laid that kiss on me last night, I swear my thighs just went up in flames! He must practice on melons or something.~~

onesilverbullet @ 2005-12-31T23:01:00

2006-01-01T06:01:13Z

Warning: some of these might make you feel a whole range of emotions.
It's pretty depressing to look back and see how great everything was.
Not that thing's aren't great now, just very different.
I didn't censor any of this because that's how things happened.
It was pretty hard to write/post some of this stuff but that's life I guess.

Hopefully the +'s will outnumber the -'s.

January
- The mudslide in La Conchita.
+ Solvang with Kasey and Shea.

+ TBTC's first show and the Denny's trip.

+ Steph's birthday pizza party.

+ The princesses story.
+ Em and Lex driving to Utah with me and us having insane amounts of fun.

- Someone I've known literally my whole life passing away in the blink of an eye.
+ The discovery of Rascal Flatt's "Skin."

February
+ Found the love of my life, Suge.

March
+ Two words: Harold's Mother.
+ Seeing my cousin Korinne for the first time.

- The ultimate decline of My Chemical Romance.
+ The infamous "butt face."

April
+ I think the only thing fun that happened this month was going to the gay bar for the first time with Andrea and Charlie.

May
+ My liking for Fall Out Boy was increased (yes, that's a major event).
+ Vegas with Nic and Serena. Watching Broke, Letter Kills and the Used completely plastered.

- The thing with my little sister.
+ Nic coming to visit.
- And the Suge's poo incident.

June
-/+ TGUK's last tour.

+ Elliott Smith wall and bubbles.

+ Moving to the new house.

July
+ Kasey, Michellefish and Shea coming to visit.
+ Warped Tour and that one time that one boy's pants fell down and he was wearing pantyhose...
++++ BILLY IDOL

-/+ Driving to Vegas with the afformentioned 3 and almost having a terrible time. Talk about foreshadowing the shitty events that eventually follow.

August
- The horrible fight.
+ My trip to Oklahoma which included seeing my loves the Alkaline Trio in two different states.
+ Falling in love with St. Louis.

- Precious Momentsville. Very creepy.

+ Em flying here from Michigan. Piercings, tattoos and the fucking scary deer.

+ Kasey and Shea driving out here to find an apartment and "start fresh."

September
----- Having the worst day ever. Lying and screwing whores will get you put in jail.
+ Hanging out with Kasey all month.

- Without a doubt the worst month of the year.

October
+ The best day ever aka the Trio show in Orem. Catching up with Matt for the first time in a long time. We left that show the happiest girls.
- Kasey going back to OK.
+ Bernstein and bro coming home plastered and Bernstein being stuck in handcuffs because he ran away from the cops.
+ Surprising the twins at their show!!

November
- Getting mono from Emily.
+ Suge's doggy diaper.

December
+ All the fun nights at the Grove and in Hollywood. Being stalked by Davey Havok.

Overall I guess it was a pretty good year.
It just sucks how one person can fuck it all up.
It would have been perfect if September didn't exist.

Ten seconds left until midnight
Nine chances to drown ourselves in black hair dye
Eight faces turned away from shock
Seven windows and six of them were locked
Five stories falling forever and ever
Three cheers to the mirror
Now there are two of us
Can we have one last dance?

Time to bust open the wine.

Whoops.

2005-12-07T02:09:36Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Monday I pulled witdown's hair (-5 points). Last week I punched dino___kisses in the arm (-10 points). In August redxlipstick and I robbed a bank (-50 points). Last Wednesday I turned bunny_valentine in for eating carbs (3 points). In October I put money in cutiechrissy's expired parking meter (14 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-48 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
onesilverbullet